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torstaina, joulukuuta 30, 2004
Got pictures outta camera
thanks btw Mikko for lending his fab camera, ive took lotsa pictures, getting most of those out now. and get more space for new pics. lotsa pics online when i get to finland and got paper ones scanned etc. and videoclips!!! Anyway, here is pic of me at moutain top after hardest 3h so far in my life while climbing up!!
torstaina, joulukuuta 30, 2004
Hello from Edinburg
just arrived. Chriss place is absolutely FAB, can hardly wait for new year tomorrow. Laters then.
torstaina, joulukuuta 30, 2004
tiistaina, joulukuuta 28, 2004
Hello from Stirling
Hiya. Im having a short time here at computer so i will be quick. Its no snow here anymore, we arrived to stirling from dorney yesterday and it was rainy as hell. now we are staying in crappy hostel which is cold to sleep and so on but cheap!! I loved highlands, Dornie etc. Skip ANd Monique where best place to visit if you are staying around there...anyway, Im fine, just some little money problems atm (like I dont have a more than 10pense at the moment...) but it will sort out aventualy and I will get more money at new year when I get my pay check. I miss Somebody and some things back there, cause I havent heard about anyone of course. I heard about indian tsunami like yesterday!!! Total black out from news...But im relaxing a lot. Cannot tell what Ive been up to cause I dont have time, but from edinburg I will post long long story about our adventures. Its great fun!! Love you all, laters then. 9 days to home, bohoo - wanna stay, love scotland!!
tiistaina, joulukuuta 28, 2004
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 22, 2004
Hello from Glasgow!!
Sigh. Tiiireeed. But still happy happy joy joy. I despetrately need a shower and so on but ... adventure it have been, I must say! Last night we left 22.50 from Leeds bus station. After an hour we changed a bus in Manchester. We waited for over an hour in pub next to station, had few drinks and chat. It was fun to see a female as portsari. And Im not use to this damn keyboard but Im doing my best...Anyway, lets get back to this story; We ran trought rain to catch next bus from Manchester to Glasgow at 01.10am. Bus was full of ppl and we had to go to backseat with these very strange few blokes which kept staring us whole trip thought. Bus was cold and seat was terrible. My buttbone is still aching and walking is quite painfull. Damn. Anyway, we should have been in Glasgow after 7am and change to get next bus and arrive Dornie at 11am. But ... there was a storm and horrible rain. Huge car crash kept us waiting for hours and hours and then traffic was stucked forever, we just slowly went metres by metres... It was PAINFUL! When we arrived to Glasgow we where 3.5h late from our plans! Next bus to Dornie leaves at 3pm and we are there at 8pm. So we spend a day in Glasgow. I'll see more than I expected to see. I love scotland already, ppl are more open and jolly than in England, in a way. I think. Anyway, firstly Eeva bought like very damn Dougie MacLean records she could find from HMV. Then we went to have a coffee to Costa coffee where I took Cafe Latte Massimo (reminds me of bold and beautiful ...) which where served in a bowl which I usually use for eating my morning cereals or so on! :D HUGE. Yummy. Anyway, now we are at internet caffee, going around ... perhaps looking for a place to eat. Anyway, on my way up to west scotland! Luv ya all, put me emails and comments, I try to check those everytime I can. If I dont get change to be online - MERRY XMAS and HAPPY SAPPY JOLLY NEW YEAR!! Pus och kram alla!
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 22, 2004
tiistaina, joulukuuta 21, 2004
Windy hills awaiting
We are leaving to scotland in few hours. We spend whole day since morning just lurking around the city of Leeds. Had window shopping, walking around (my legs are killing me) and ate sushi! Woo...Now 14h and two changes in bus and at morning 11am we'll arrive middle of nowhere where we'll be for next 5 days. Nice!! Ok, laters!
tiistaina, joulukuuta 21, 2004
maanantaina, joulukuuta 20, 2004
Hello from Leeds
Im at Leeds, at Erics place. I woke up moment ago. Went forever to get to sleep and we chatted til morning, when Eric co went to work and we then to sleep. I had nice trip, first 2.5h to Tampere with bus. Then 2.5h in station waiting. Then 3.5h in plane. But it was such a time! Met this jolly guy named Trevor who sat next to me in growned plane. He was from Canada and we chatted whole flight. Nice to meet new interesting ppl. Anyway, then Eeva was at Stansted waiting me, had a cup of coffee and we started to drive to Leeds. It was interesting, little addventure, we only got lost TWISE...we where here at 6am and Im sure we woke up whole neighbourhood cause Eeva's car is piece of shit and engine is going to burst in pieces in any time. It was horrible from time to time. :) But Im doing fine, we are having cups of coffee now, then to city and buy train / bus tickets for wednesday. No plans just hanging around. Tomorrow perhaps at night we look around for nice bar or something...Anyway, Im fine!! my phone aint working cause I have saldo thing on, which i forgot to remove before I left. DAMN. I'll call to mum and make her take it away, cause I want to keep touch with few ppl back Finland. Luv ja. Laters.
maanantaina, joulukuuta 20, 2004
sunnuntaina, joulukuuta 19, 2004
Vain valkeata joulua
Heräsin juuri. Pakkasin yöhön. Menkat ovat valvottaneet megalomaanisella tuskallaan kolmatta yötä. Ulkona sataa lunta. Todellakin. Mukava herätä moiseen.
Mutta nämä kivut.
ja mitä ottaa mukaan. Rinkka joka vaikutti valtavalta onkin aika pieni. Ulkona olevat taskut tekevät mielettömän suuren näköiseksi, mutta ei olekkaan niin...Nooo. Jotain paitoja etc...Jotain vähän siistimpää, patikoimiseen rönttöä lämmintä. Patikointi takki piti jättää pulkasta pois sillä jopa ilmat ulos puristettuna vei pitkälti puolet rinkan tiloista. Otan mukaan punaisen prätkätakkini. Luulen sen olevan paras matkalla koska se pitää kosteutta ja tuulta ja on villatakin kanssa villakangastakkiakin lämpimämpi vaikkakin on lyhyt!
Koska tilaa on jokseenkin vähän ja tavaraa on tuliaisiksi niin helvetisti (kolme pakettia leipää, 4plo glögitiivistettä etc) ja rayanair on niin stubborn tavaroiden suhteen on vain luovuttava jostain. LÄmmintä ja käytännöllistä mukaan vaan sitten. Nahkatakki menee hyvin pikku patikoinneilla kun laittaa paksun fleezetakin alle. Anyway, its getting late but I wish to get some hint from ppl who have visited there, what to take with me? Ei jaksa mitään bilebilevaatteita raahata, alennusmyynnit on juuri joulun jälkeen, joku hienompi toppi voi hyvin tarttua mukaan jostain. Jokatapauksessa, suurimpi aika menee matkustelessa ja paikkoja katselemassa. Hitto kun ahdistaa, Eeva ei vastaa tuhansiin kysymyksiini emaileissa joten olen aivan tyhjän päällä. Kun olen perillä saan varmaan tuta "miksi sulla ei oo sitä ja tätä mukana" NO MIKSI EI VASTATA EMAILEIHIN!? ...
Mulla on lämmintä mukana. It enough huh?
Sunnuntai-lista
Viikonloppuna kerääntynyttä
Baarissa koko viikonloppuna 30 min
Itse nautittua shottia tequilaa 4½ kpl
Tequilaa pullossa jäljellä 95%
Ystävää jakamassa tequilaa perjantaina 3kpl
Indiana Jones elokuvia 2 kpl
Aloittanut pakkaamisen n.5 kertaa
Lopettanut pakkaamisen n.5 kertaa
Ostettuja valosarjoja 1kpl
Poltettuja savukkeita 0 kpl
Poltettuja sikarilloja 1½ kpl
Kissaikävää 59h
Syötyjä särkylääkkeitä (Ibumetin) 9 kpl
Saatuja joululahjoja 5 kpl
Annettuja joululahjoja 0 kpl (tuon skotlannista jotain)
Lopetettuja vaki hubeja 2 kpl
Juotuja glögi lasillisia n. 6 kpl
Yesh. My tummy is aching like there is tomorrow. Some coffee and then on my way to city to find bra's. Im having busy day today...argh. And IM neurvous.
YAY!
sunnuntaina, joulukuuta 19, 2004
Haste Haste
Packing, unpacking, packing...unpacking. ARGH. How much stuff I need in 2.5weeks! It makes me grazy! You cannot know the weather, will we hike around (so warm clothing, hiking boots, etc) and nice clothing for Xmas, party clothing ... mostly just black shirts and few jeans and stuff to mix with. but 4 bottles of glög, lotsa bread and chokolate, all toilet shit and so on makes it seems HUGE pile of stuff. And I dont want to pay any extra. This is my first time to go anywhere alone, I mean fligh. And first time to use ryanair.
Yesterday I had my last work day. After it I came home and this place was full of Xmas. Johanna had cleaned around and put candles here and there. I went to hot bath, we made some chicken wok and glög and then friends came around and we started to drink my tequila. Oh how much fun we had. 4 to 5 shots of tequila and I was so relaxed and a bit tipsy. Lotsa laugh and fun. We watched funny stuff from internet and smackdown from telly and ate pizza. Then I went to bed at 2am and got up after 10am. Then grazy time at town, find funeral clothing and this and that do that go there and buy that....argh. Then home, loundry, to homehome talk about funerals and so on, then home after 9pm and start to pack and...Well Im here now. My bra's just broke in pieces and I need to wake up early to arrange things like find new bra from city and something little to eat, final packing, shower, eating and take a bus to Tampere at 17.00. Im at Tre after six pm and have to wait over 3h for flight. Then after 9pm Im in the plane. After 10pm Im at London where Eeva pick me up and we drive 3 to 4 hours to Leeds to Eric's. Geeeeeeeeeeee-e.
Im neurvous, tired, stressed, EXCITED ...
And happy.
I try to find places to update this. If you wanna contact me use lotta ( a ) charlysangels dot com.
sunnuntaina, joulukuuta 19, 2004
perjantaina, joulukuuta 17, 2004
Sigh
Its raining outside. Im sitting here at awakening hall and writing last pages of my work. Moment ago we all sat at coffee room and had eggnot, talked and laughed. Its been hell sometimes but I truly miss some ppl 'round here ... I hate goodbyes. Im happy but sad. I came back here to hide from goodbyes but ppl comes to hug me and oh well...being too nice. 1½year in same place is quite long for me. Hectic pulsating work. ... Sigh.
perjantaina, joulukuuta 17, 2004
torstaina, joulukuuta 16, 2004
Im like dying here
I cannot stop laughing and Im at work.
the guy to the left, göran persson, is the swedish prime minister ...
torstaina, joulukuuta 16, 2004
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 15, 2004
Gimme a hug, will ya!!
*HUGS* TOTAL!
give gennie more *HUGS*
Get hugs of your own
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 15, 2004
Aye, the irland - it's mine!
Hehe, I had a bunch of great emails from Eeva. Last night when I was arriving back home from 9 to eleven store to home (like every night) I decided that I have to go. I start to see budget arrangements and everything tonight, but what ever - I need it. For my own little head and really, I greatly miss Eeva and I need to be with her. 10 years of friendship at 3th january!! That's something to celebrate. And I need vacation after two years of work. I need to take some time for myself. I need to go to feel cold sea breeze. I need to move. Travel. Now. I was already gave up, "Im not going, No no, Im too tired to think, to breath." But I realized, after 'bout five ppl gnagging that "Its for your own health. You have to go. You have to go. Otherwise you're head will burst and you will regret it next year." I KNOW! I know.
Anyway, I got a short short short hairdo now. Woah, I feel like bold!! Its ... horrible. Well, it looks cool and everyone that have seen it says that its far better than the do I had last time. Nicey.
Yesterday when I came home something was very wrong. Our kitchen tubs where full of black (like oily or something) water. We took it away and it came back. So we didnt do the dishes or so on. The pipeman came over at morning so I wish that we can use our kitchen today! Also lights are getting off, fuce are burning etc... Its scary in a way since everything have been fine and dandy until now.
One place at stirling where we are going to be for few days is arrangeing big new years party. We are not around anymore, but all the arrangements and things seems very interesting and great fun. For example this drinking game which is big part of the party in Inn.
The Braveheart game consists of three items required:
1. The Movie “Braveheart”
2. A “See You Jimmy Hat”
3. Plenty of Alcohol
The Rules :
1. Every time William Wallace’s name is mentioned - Hold aloft your drink & shout “William Wallace”.
2. Every time Freedom is mentioned - stand, skull your drink and shout “freedom”
3. When English speak to Wallace : shout “Ya dirty English Bastards”
4. When Long shanks comes on screen shout “BOO”
5. When Stephen speaks shout “It’s my Ireland” in a crap Irish accent.
6. Every time someone is killed, drink one finger of your drink and every time they are killed by Wallace then Skull your drink!
7. Every time Scotland is mentioned, down your drink and place on your head.
8. Shout SCHWING when Sophie Marceau appears on screen.
9. When the Bagpipes are heard on soundtrack then get up & dance.
I mean, if THAT ain't fun what is it then? ... Har har. Ok, I have too much work and too little time, I hate it and everyone are staring me like "That bitch aint gonna get nutting done 'til friday"...well - I wanna prove them wrong, so some ass kicking working follows. Laters.
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 15, 2004
tiistaina, joulukuuta 14, 2004
Mainichi koshite inotteru
Doko de michi ni mayotta no ka
Deau made ni sukoshi jikan wo kakesugita kigasuru
HEEL mo nani mo iranai no
Chiisana negai wa ima yatto kanaisoo
Anata no kage wa ima wa mada tooi kedo
Cocco is a healing power for my soul right now. At work and very indeed unable to do any of my work which is driving me nuts. I have 2 days and I havent got ANYTHING to do! Which is mostly cause my work partner keep pushing me in other business even thought she very well know that Im very heavily having a hard time with my own work...sigh.
tiistaina, joulukuuta 14, 2004
maanantaina, joulukuuta 13, 2004
Just whining - move along - nothing to see.
At work. I slowly slowly try to do something. I have no powers. I try to avoid of being front of anyone of my workmates. Only one who knows about anything is my work partner. Im so tired that I dont feel like breathing. To speak and smile or anything - its a hard work. Seems like my muscles and mouth aint working at all. Im just feeling snappy and well...nothing really.
I cannot think anything. It seems that I will not have a Xmas this year. I dont have any Xmas feelings no more. I know that it perhaps get back if I get myself to England but right now (and I suppose to leave in Sunday) I feel like I dont have powers to think am I going or not. There is lotsa things to do and I feel like I have no powers to think more than that very minute which Im living at the time ... Gosh I hate to listen this whining of mine.
Like ... I dont have powers to arrange money situation. Or a backbag. Somebody to Senni's place. Myself to Tampere. Things with Eric via email. Varusmiesavustus papers to Kela. Matkavakuutus. Etc. But - It kills me if I dont go, I dont want to stay in Turku and I definitely cannot go to Kajaani. Where there? Huh? I need a time off. I miss Eeva greatly. But right now Im ... so tired. I wish I could be different.
Seems like some ppl are judgeing me cause Im so cynical and so on. I cannot help myself - I've learned to be this way since I was a kid. I would love to burst to cry and be weak and hurt, but its not like push the button and you are totally different than you've been. Im such a damn hard ass. I block the feeling far inside me and just "get along" like nothing happends. Except now Im just quite tired. Mentally and physichally. All my last weeks stress and thigns that happend this weekend ... Im like computer which is tilted and neet to be boot. There have been so much death in my life lately and I always push it behind like "Oh well, I cry it out later" or so. All sorrow in past few years are at my back and I afraid that day when It all burst out. Sigh. Whine whine.
I love star trek. Im so addicted it again!
maanantaina, joulukuuta 13, 2004
sunnuntaina, joulukuuta 12, 2004
Sunday, Fucking Sunday
Too much.
Last night we went to see Bridget Jones. It was good and felt nice to just relax and laugh. Then we went to Hemingways to drink Pina Coladas and other drinks. After few hours of talking about Grandad and everything me and Senni got a phonecall from Dad. Korholanmäki (our homehouse at Kajaani) is burned.
*Ka-Boom*
Well, walls are still up but everything at east side of the house is ruined. Two cats are dead, one (Paavo) missing, Dad and Virpi are living in holiday village cottage near Korholanmäki with Dogs. Everyone are shocked. Im so tired that I hardly even want to say a word to anyone.
I started to ruin my money, took helluva loads of all kind of shots and drinks. At home half bottle of red wine and went to sleep after 5am. I woke up at morning with migraine and feeling sick. Puked once and there went away my hang-over (thank god) ... Now Im just tired. I should do the dishes or something like that but I ...
my hands are shaking so much that I cannot even carry a mug from kitchen.
I was suppose to go to meet Granma (and Grandad) today (and whine to get some money for my trip, but well...) but Im too tired. Im so tired.
Work tomorrow. Sigh.
sunnuntaina, joulukuuta 12, 2004
lauantaina, joulukuuta 11, 2004
Je suis fatique moi. I didnt want to wake up, I felt deatly tired and I still do. Johanna came to kick me up and made me some breakfast. Damn, I have most loveliest roommate. I got heart touching phonecall from Eka at night while I was on my way to Raisio. Im not able to write any beautiful sentimental words about anything like my sister can. I dont have any memories like that cause ... well. What ever. Christ, Im tired. I cannot feel a thing. I dont know about anything. About my trip which I dont have money to do and right now I dont have powers to plan anything. I have a week at work and I feel like I would need a month off.
Ok, Enought of this, I dont have anything interesting to write. We are going to "celebrate" Mothers bday today, we decided last night that we stick at the plan to go to see a movie (Bridget Jones part two) with Mum, Pentti, Hilkka, Senni and me Co. Then have few drinks and chat. Granpa would have loved that. Movies and booze.
Ok, enough.
lauantaina, joulukuuta 11, 2004
perjantaina, joulukuuta 10, 2004
Outoa mutta liian totta - R.I.P part 2.
Juuri tänään pyysin äitiltä et mennään katsoo Ukkia sunnuntaina. Edellispäivänä ajattelin etten enää henkisesti pysty kestämään jos hän kuolee sillä aikaa kun olen armeijassa tai reissussa. Kuukausi sitten hän oli ihan kunnossa, pikku sairaala visiitin ja munuaiskatetrin takia huononi, masentu ja sain juuri 5min sitten puhelun.
Ukki kuoli.
En tiedä. Itkettää. Räjähdin itkuun ja nyt nauran ja itken ja nauran ja en naura ja en tunne mitään ja...
Liikaa kuolemaa ollut tänä vuonna. Ja tämä oli kaikken hirveintä ja rakkainta ja odottamatonta. Ja liian "nuori". Mummi on elämänsä kunnossa. En mä tiedä mitä mä selitän...Vittu. Piti olla talven ekat pikkujoulut, en oo menos. Oon ens viikon sunnuntaina menos skotteihin. Olenko? En tiedä.
Mun pää levii. Sain eilen lähes hyperventilaatio kohtauksen stressin takia.
Hahaa haha. Just kun eilen ja tänään miettinyt sitä niin paljon "etten kestä" jos näin tapahtuu. Ja pakko päästä sanomaan jotain cheer uppia "älä kuole ennen kun mä olen saavuttanut jotain elämässäni josta sä voisit olla ylpeä" tms...shittii. Aargh. Mä en osaa tälläisiä tunneskaaloja.
perjantaina, joulukuuta 10, 2004
R.I.P Darrell "Dimebag" Lance Abbott
Im...I have no words. Johanna called me about this when I was walking home. Im angry and shocked how fucking messed up ppl can be to do things like this without particular reason. Im shocked. Im sad. So Very Sad.
Dimebag Darrell, guitarist for Damageplan (which is a band full of Pantera ex-members) and Pantera, was killed during a shooting spree at a Columbus, Ohio, nightclub Wednesday night. He was 38.
Damageplan had just begun their first song in front of approximately 250 people at Alrosa Villa when the gunman jumped onstage, made a comment about Pantera ("You destroyed Pantera!"), and began firing at close range into Darrell's body, shooting him several times before opening fire on the crowd. more here >>
This makes me sick.
R.I.P
perjantaina, joulukuuta 10, 2004
Morning mourning
Its dark and I need to go to my driving lessons (I've had a car for ages but here in Finland you have to take these "second" courses after few years before you get a final licence...) which I truly hate atm. I want to go to work, I have more than too much on my shoulders and ONE WEEK (5days) 'til Im outta of that place. Its dark and slippery icy wet weather and I havent been driving in city central in ages cause I dont own a car. Im neurvous and Im sure that I'll fuck up with driving schools car. Also Im neurvous cause teacher that I use to have (who was a jolly guy and we had great time driving around) is no longer teaching in this school so I'll meet a new person and I'll drive a huge car. Im not into huge cars at nine am at the city central.
Well I find some amusing stuff from one 4um Im idling in.
> You enter the museum lobby. You see here an apple bar, a paperweight, and a dog named Bingo.
INPUT COMMAND > feed apple bar to bingo
> You don't have it.
INPUT COMMAND > get apple bar
> You can't. It's out of reach.
INPUT COMMAND > look apple bar
> The apple bar is cozily nestled atop a mountainous stack of paleontology periodicals.
INPUT COMMAND > knock stack over
> I do not understand "stack".
INPUT COMMAND > push periodicals
> Why would you want to push that?
INPUT COMMAND > look around
> You are in the museum lobby. There is a heavy oak desk and matching chair here. There are many stacks of papers and periodicals here. You see here an apple bar, a paperweight, and a dog named Bingo.
INPUT COMMAND > get on chair
> You can't get that.
INPUT COMMAND > stand on chair
> Feeling rather foolish, you mount the chair. Great view from up here!
INPUT COMMAND > get apple bar
> You can't. It's out of reach.
INPUT COMMAND > move chair beside periodicals
> You can't. You're standing on it.
INPUT COMMAND > get off chair
> You can't get that.
INPUT COMMAND > dismount chair
> You step down from the chair. Your credit card falls out of your pocket.
INPUT COMMAND > get credit card
> You pick up your credit card and put it in your pocket.
INPUT COMMAND > move chair beside periodicals
> You push the chair up beside the stack of periodicals.
INPUT COMMAND > stand on chair
> Feeling rather foolish, you mount the chair. Great view from up here!
INPUT COMMAND > get apple bar
> You reach out to take the apple bar, and the stack of periodicals collapses! The apple bar is buried!
INPUT COMMAND > dig for apple bar
> You can't. You're still standing on the chair.
INPUT COMMAND > dismount chair
> You step down from the chair. Your credit card falls out of your pocket.
INPUT COMMAND > get credit card
> You pick up your credit card and put it in your pocket.
INPUT COMMAND > dig for apple bar
> Where do you want to dig?
INPUT COMMAND > dig in periodicals
> Using your shovel, you dig through the periodicals. There is an apple bar hidden underneath.
INPUT COMMAND > get apple bar
> You can't. You're holding a shovel.
INPUT COMMAND > put shovel away
> Where do you want to put the shovel?
INPUT COMMAND > put shovel in pocket
> You put the shovel in your pocket.
INPUT COMMAND > get apple bar
> You pick up the apple bar and put it in your pocket.
INPUT COMMAND > feed apple bar to bingo
> Bingo bites your leg as you approach. Crippled, you starve to death in the deserted museum. GAME OVER.
INPUT COMMAND > but i have an apple bar
> GAME OVER. Press N for New game, R to Restore a saved game, or Q to quit.
Yesh. Now I need to take an overload of coffee. Somebody is purring in a shoebox next to me and pushing around a candy with his pawn. I wonder where he have found that one cause I just cleaned this place...Hmm. What ever.
perjantaina, joulukuuta 10, 2004
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 08, 2004
Emotional landscapes
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 08, 2004
Uh Wuggah Wuh
"Courage is saying, ""Maybe what I'm doing isn't working; maybe I should try something else."" -Anna Lappe, O Magazine, June 2003.
That's why Im washing my hand away from my work and just clearly doing my work without thinking about it that much. I mean, week and 2 days. AND IM OUTTA HERE! I dont need to stress that much, I just need to get everything done 'til 17.12.2004 and then its not my business. Im just a little orderly who stressa about these bigger things and does carry too much heavy things on her back.
Two weeks and Im in England and meeting Eeva. We are planning our trip a lot. Senni, do you or co. have a rinkka to borrow me for few weeks? Im not going to take lot of stuff but in trains and so on it would be best to carry with. I think. I also need to give Somebody to Senni next week. Sniff.
3weeks 3days without smoking ciggies. Damn woman! :))
Im so tired that I can hardly keep my eyes open...This place has something in its air that makes me dizzy and tired always. 4days at home and I was feeling right about fine. Except my hormonal thingies which are driving me grazy and made my yesterday suck highly. Its now better but yesterday my breats hurt so much that I could not breath while wearing bra...well not well without either. Sore. But, now a bit better, I quess! :)
I've been sinking in to madness. All I keep thinking about its Sephirot, Tifa and co.
I somehow also wait this "movie" sequel for FF7 (happening year after what happends in the game itself) ... it will be release in Japan around Xmas and in USA in first quater of 2005. Its called Advent Children and it seems very well made. Of course, I dont wait it to be good, but hey, whaddoya know!
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 08, 2004
Mikä on kun ei taidot riitä?
Yestas.
Nyt alkaa savu nousemaan korvista.
"Voisit ne listat kirjoittaa tsip tsip vauhtia, ois kiire..."
Joo joo, pitkän viikonlopun jälkeen on harmaata tulla töihin. Muutenkin joku ihme fiilis päällä. Sitten vielä KUKAAN ei ole maininnut minulle ainoalle joka niitä listoja kirjoittaa, että koodit on vaihtunut ja joku siksi junnaa ja tulee tekstiä "ei hintaa" (josta saan ongelmia muka vääristä koodeista vaikka ovatkin kansainvälisiä) kirjoitus on hidasta ja kukaan ei osaa auttaa kun ne on vaihtanut joku jossain varsinais-suomen sairaanhoitopiirin ylemmässä johtoportaassa ja ja ...
POKS.
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 08, 2004
tiistaina, joulukuuta 07, 2004
Aaltoja, vittu!
Its tuesday and Im having a day off. Long long weekend which turned out to be one of those "I have pile of things to do and I use 4 days of starting to sort 'em out" ... Sigh, Im having a slight stress and thats why cannot do a thing! I have lot of work at job, I have money probs which are making my head explode, I have little stress about this trip we are taking to scotland, about driving schools last driving lessons Im having TOMORROW, 'bout my adventures in Final Fantasy VII, Money situtations, about these hundret things I SHOULD DO like cleaning this dusty apartment (Im caughing cause of the shite which we have on the floors) ... Im drowning here and I still keep describing the water for myself. Heh.
What a weekend. Friday Mum, Senni and I went to see De-lovely. It was well acted and arranged movie. Touching indeed. After it we chat the whole movie out from our minds and had a cup of coffee in Hemingway's (thought Senni drank lonkero! Ha.) ... I was planning to go home to watch telly, sleep and fool around with the computer but then I got a phonecall and was soonly invited to join to watch The Flaming sideburns at Klubi! So quicly to home to have a fast shower and new black jeans on - voila! What a gig, I love that band! I didnt saw much, I cannot help it if Im not at the front row - Im just a small girly without rockin' platforms you know...Anyway, a portion of good rock 'n roll show makes one to feel lotsa better. Few beers, band t-shirt and soon saturday morning came on to me like a truck. Afternoon I spend shopping and being a straight eye for a hetero guy. I find myself a fab jeans from H & M's kids section. Regular jeans with glitter all around and size 158 fitted me perfectly which made me sad about those 30euros which I used for black jeans which hems are too long, waistline is too wide and high and so on so on...recular things which I have to just endure when there are jeans involved. I didnt buy these glam jeans, maybe someday - I try to avoid all the shopping and buying until Im in England!! At city I got a strike from lightning and then started a horrible migraine which lasted almost whole day thought. It took a lot from me to _walk_ home with a hammer inside my head. I took a nap and zombied myself thought the rest of the day but later at night Eka came over and we left to Bar Three Beers to play games and have a pint. Card games, Uno cards, Huojuva torni and best version of Trivial Pursuit so far...somekind of 20th aniversary thingie where all the questions where from last 20 years and there was SO much about computers that a table full of nerds (=Me, Senni, Jussi, Miikka and Eka) laughed their ass off. I skated home with Eka cause I couldnt walk. Icy roads. It took forever to get home but junk food made it and I falled asleep. Cannot remeber about sunday, really nothing happened until night. I went to see Strikin' Case and Parasite City's gig in Down Town. SC was rockin' and I had problems to keep myself together while flirting with their HOT drummer... ;)
Independence day yesterday. Slept late, listen hours of records, lit two candle at 6pm and loved the scene of hundrets of ppl at the building around us doing so too, junk food, Final Fantasy VII ... at midnight I realized to give up, have a snack and sleep. My body is aching cause of something have been very wrong in my body for awhile! Im having all the same things like while pregnancy. I dont believe in bible but its Xmas time and miracles happends huh? ;) Oh well, something is going wild with my hormones and its making me mad, sobby, achy and sore.
I should start to clean this damn apartment already. Lotsa million things to do and I dont know where to start. Its dark even thought its 12am! Sigh. Damn you, Winter - why did you left us like this!!
tiistaina, joulukuuta 07, 2004
torstaina, joulukuuta 02, 2004
Parti parti
Yesh. Töissä odotellaan salien vapautumista ja lähes joka iikka sukii suojalätsiään koko ajan hokien "tukkani litistyy kuitenkin" "papiljotit tippuvat" "voi ei tää sekaa mun tukan ja oon niinko ihan rähjäne" etc. Odotus on kova, lähtö ortopedin 60-vuotis kutsuille häämöttää. Väsyttää. Ulkona ei enää yhtään lunta ja on pimeää. Yritän tehdä "töitä". Katselen Schneiderin kuvia netistä ja yritän etsiä sopivaa josta voisin tehdä hauskan kuvamanipulaation jahka saan systeriltä kuvia keikalta...
torstaina, joulukuuta 02, 2004
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 01, 2004
Shake your moneymaker
Right on. If you can get up with wrong foot, I did at morning. This day have been disaster so far. Gladly Im at work and I cant fall apart, cry like a baby and whine like there is no tomorrow. Im such a baby but there is too much information going thought my little brains, Im tired and I've been trying to put all these chaotic thoughts inline for days. Otherwise nothing new in this dark city. I just hate that my mood is going hand-in-hand with weather. Now its wet, dark and gloomy, no snow - just rainy shit. Everything that was clear and white have melted away. I so hate Southern Finland winter from time to time. I didnt know about Kaamos-depression 'til I moved here from North. But I think I've said that like hundreds of times so far.
I paid all the bills (not all, but mainly) at morning. Today I need to find a proper luvely pair of winter boots. I want to use skirts again like I use to do! Oh, I cannot wait for friday when Mum and I will go to see De-Lovely! Yesh.
I have 40 mornings of "freedom" and 2.5week of work. I dont know what to think of it. I've been working here for 2 years and its the end of a one time of my life. A dot. Period. Which reminds me - Concratulations Mikko! He got a place from Nursing school! Ha! I cannot believe that! :D Its amazing and so cool. Im So proud of that asshole!
At morning I tried to find my another contactlens. I didnt found it because I didnt see that I tropped it at the floor when I took 'em off before going to sleep. Damn, I need to go to buy a pair today cause I get major headaches from my eyeglasses which I cannot use no more. Its way too expensive to buy new lenses...Im so blind! ;)
(Gastroenteorlogi käveli ohitseni juuri ja totesi "Siitä vaan sanoi siittiö!" ... kaikkea sitä.)
Im having a bad day and Im mocking myself about the things Im thinking of. I hate to think too much, I dont know am I building a pressure for things I dont want to get damaged or what! Im just mainly pissed for myself and thats why to others. I feel like Im an idiot who only thinks about me me me, but ... well, I think its like this quite often when you start to think relationships too much.
keskiviikkona, joulukuuta 01, 2004
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