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keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 30, 2002
Oh My Gods! - What a brilliant way to use time! Another jolly online comic!
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 30, 2002
First I take downtown - then chicago!
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 30, 2002
< Oola > kaksi vuotta sitten kun tutkittiin pää siellä ei ollut mitään
< Genoveva > ei mitään?
< Genoveva > i truly believe that.
< Genoveva > saitko sen kirjallisena?
< Oola > siis joo
Finally my sister wasnt too afraid to said it out loud ;)) ... Tehee, I think this was so funny. We are talking about neurology and Im just making fun of her. Shame on me.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 30, 2002
Im so sick of my life. I'll tell more later about it. Im so busy that I dont even have time to sit front of this computer and write about my life...Well I went to see movie tonight with Senni, which was nice. Only free night in ages. Im already neurvous about tomorrows blues gig and trembling. More I have job on stage more hermit I am. More hermit I am, more I miss and long to go to north or sea...then more I sit alone in apteekki and read book, write diary and so on. I dont want to come home at nights. Most of my money (I dont drink more than free coffee cause I "know" bartenders or class of wine) goes to taxi when its too freezing to walk 12km to home...Im sick of being on stage but why in earth I long to do music then? I think I have some kind of artistic ident crise or something...sigh. Tomorrow I have first soundtsech at 6pm, then another 7pm, so starts at 8pm to 12pm and...how in earth I go to home again? With taxi? tomorrow is also a last day to pay my internet bill...I think I really should get a job or something before I lose my internet connection or in worsth case - my apartment. I think I should get flat from archipelago with cable connection and I would be most happy girl in the world. If my back yard is an ocean...Sigh. Maybe have a cat or dog...my cd collection and sometimes great parties with my friends who stays for days and I cook...Why in earth I am social in a way and still I dont long for nothing but a time to be alone? In apteekki they let me be in company but still alone...I drink coffee and read book sitting front of the counter...When I put book in my bag they (bartenders) know that I might chat a word or two...Its a livingroom...place to meet ppl I work with or place to be extremely no-one. Im sick of the picture of me in others eyes. Im sick to wishes. Im sick of my life. More I do things more I want to be alone. More I want to be alone, more I want to talk to ppl but then I just dont have any words. I've always been a hermit. but still Im quite social. Its my trap and I always try to find balance between it. That's why Im impossible to date with or been in relationship with. That's why I always wonder that why in earth I've become an artist. Now to sleep...tomorrow I have a long day...
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 30, 2002
tiistaina, lokakuuta 29, 2002
too much riget for me. layot is black for now - autumn. but not depressing! gotta go to sleep. monitor is feeling sick. i'll write more tomorrow.
tiistaina, lokakuuta 29, 2002
maanantaina, lokakuuta 28, 2002
Can you believe it! Im at home, I have tv on and Im cooking! I cannot remember last time I spend time like this. But soonish to blues band rehersals. Im feeling neurvous. and starving.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 28, 2002
I SO think that Avalon is one of the best things I've seen in ages. Kenji Kawai's music is heartbrakeing. I die and reborn.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 28, 2002
What a long day. I came home and checked my mobile phone...over 20 calls and then people asks me why do I keep it on "silent" when Im at rehersals (my director hates me cause always my phone keeps noise) or having few hours of free time between sleep and duty. Sometimes I truly consider to allow myself to destroy (or something) my mobile phone and just use recular old fashion phone which I have here...You know, there was life before mobilephones, nokia and internet! You're not dead if you dont answer to your phone, emails or idle in IRC all night long! Oh well, gotta be awake very early and at rehersals at noon. Roar. I adore main ppl in this musical project. Like in tommy (not in same way, but still) we have grown to be a group which have fun together and are friends. Its warm and everyone back up everyone. Well I know most of the dancers, Korte, Epa and Eeva from Tommy musical, but the new ones are adorable also. Everyone wrote something nice and personal to my diary today when we where (almost everyone tonight!) haveing one beer after in Apteekki. I dont remember when have I laughed so much lately. I dranked one beer, 12cl wine with coffee and we could have chat til morning. Oh well. Tomorrow I have long day. Blues band rehersals starts at 9pm and so on. Grrr...Nighty nite.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 28, 2002
sunnuntaina, lokakuuta 27, 2002
You know that you should really change your hair color back to red - your old lovely teacher lives in same apartment and she cames to talk to you: "Hey, does you sister live in Verkatehdas?"...She thought I was Senni. Well I've been thinking lately a lot that "Who the hell is that neighbour who always seems to greet me like she somehow know me, and who in a way looks like my old teacher from primary school (who I truly adored like few others from that school...after it all the teachers where dick heads who really destroyed my passion as musician...7 years of brake and oh my god im on the stage again. so sue me.)...Hahha I'll tell more about friday, this whole day tomorrow. I really have to go to sleep. Musical rehersals tomorrow afternoon and I had a jolly time at Apteekki till closing time. I didnt drink a lot, but there was loads of ppl I know and evening went happily with yawning and chatting...When I was ordering a class of wine my cello teacher screamed to my ear "Lotta, how great to see you" and I freezed to stare her..."eheheh...hi?" ;) Even thought I know that we know a lot of same ppl I dont really thought I see her there acting as my friend. We are very good pals but In a way I respect her as a teacher and she was talking to me as a very good femalefriend so I had a few minutes of astonishment...And Im half asleep ATM.
I want to go to Kajaani. I miss everyone so badly. Or then I want to go to the sea...but hey "kaikki joukolla jäätä särkemään..."
Why does I never find a place to hit my roots in? I always decide to stay and live in harmony, but still my soul yearns for something I really cannot know...Or then I know, but I wont say it out loud. Hermit. After being a whole of my life time so rootles, going around...I truly hope that sometimes I could find a moment of staying calm...as in the sea or north. Or sometimes even here, but...ARGH. Ok, I go to sleep. Hellurei ja hellät tunteet.
sunnuntaina, lokakuuta 27, 2002
lauantaina, lokakuuta 26, 2002
Great gig. But still I feel that Im extremely sick to this life.
lauantaina, lokakuuta 26, 2002
perjantaina, lokakuuta 25, 2002
What a way to get up after too less of sleep - horrible migraine. Took 5-6 hours to get myself feel a bit better to get up and walk around. Damnation.
Sanna Mansikka gig tonight. Gooosh. Im already tired. Soundtseck starts at 7pm and gig around midnight. I dont know what to wear. I dont know how to put my hair. I dont know what to eat before I go to city. I dont know should I use time between gig and so on in Epa's place or in apteekki, drinking coffee and staring wall next to me. Dont really know.
I love to be in the stage but it makes me extremely neurvous.
When Im hungry Im too lazy to bite or cook anything.
What to you know. Stupid survey and morning coffee. Its almost sunny and Im out of phone saldo.
1. What's the first thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up?
artist. or a dog.
2. Describe a dream you remember. The first one that comes to mind:
I was in Apteekki, my friend went to talk with one bartender that Im in love with him and why he's ignoring me. When I woke up I wasnt sure was it dream or reality...thank GOD it was a dream.
3. What book are you reading?
Comics at the moment.
4. What colour are your sheets?
ndigo blue with yellow star print.
5. What song is in your head right now?
Sanna Mansikka - "Unien leikkaaja saa paikan"
6. Waitaminnit... Where are you?
At home. in my "work room".
7. I am afraid of...:
nothing...well sometimes I afraid that im losing my mind.
8. Your day job/dream job:
dream job...anything to do with movies, music and art. to do everything.
9. What movie have you seen the most times?
star wars and brakeing the waves. disney cartoons.
10. One question for Jesus, or Buddha or Muhammed, etc:
How do you do?
11. The guilty pleasure you'd really rather not admit to here:
really wanting to kiss and touch someone certain.
12. Comfort food of choice:
Noodles
13. What's the last video you rented?
Amelie
14. Who do people say you look like?
Maija Vilkkumaa or the girl from pulp fiction.
15. What's the bane of your existence?
lazyness.
16. What's the last thing you found on the ground and picked up?
20c euro coin. Huray!
17. A writer worth reading:
Kundera, Yoshimoto...
18. Where would you like to grow old?
In Korholanmäki. Or somewhere where there is beautiness all around me.
19. A word of wisdom:
Silence.
20. The question you get asked ALL THE TIME!!!:
Is THAT your real hair color?
21. When was your last hospital visit?
In july.
22. The last thing you said out loud:
Good morning.
23. Current clothing:
white t-shirt, red trouses.
24. Your favourite season: fall and spring. and summer and..
25. In my last lifetime I was probably: a male.
Ok. Now dishes, cook something to eat, mum will pick some dirty clothes on her way to home (yes, im too tired to wash jeans with my hands)...It already a lot. Time I mean. Im feeling extremely lazy and dizzy. But I think, this will be a fun night. It has to. I've desided to go on 100%!
perjantaina, lokakuuta 25, 2002
I need to get my hair red again. I just have to. Everyone calls me blonde "Hey, you cute blonde over there"...or something like that! Gosh!
perjantaina, lokakuuta 25, 2002
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 23, 2002
Im bored and on my way to sleep. Yeah.
Love Test
1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold
as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she
loves you.
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.
4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is traditional, without saying anything, the other
will know what you want, both of you communicate by hearts.
6. You are tolerant; you'll try very hard not to commit adultery.
7. You are quite pessimistic, you don't think happy marriages exist
anymore nowadays.
8. At this moment, you don't have the thirst for love, you can't do
anything for it, you won't fall for it easily.
Yeah rrright. I have a early wake up tomorrow. Busy day. Busy weekend. Cello lesson. Quess have I had played any in few weeks? Haha, shame on me. I feel terrible. I have to wake up to play a bit at morning...
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 23, 2002
How to Dance Gothic - this link I should send to my choreography. Haha. Waiting for a lift to singing rehersals. He's late. One fucking hour late.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 23, 2002
I've created a whole new life - run run around. I just come here to sleep or then I go homehome. So I hardly ever spend time here...sigh.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 23, 2002
tiistaina, lokakuuta 22, 2002
Yes. Another silent night. In a way after hectic day and weekend, moments with good cheese pasta and tea, with surfing around and filling stupid silly quiz...like this one...
Who are you?
Wooot?
tiistaina, lokakuuta 22, 2002
You Are An Intense Kisser!
Deep tounging, nibbling, and locking lips for hours are on your agenda.
You've been known to wear lovers out with your kiss,
before getting to anything else on the menu.
And given that you kiss so well... imagine how you do everything else.
How Do *You* Kiss?
sunnuntaina, lokakuuta 20, 2002
How dare I look that fabulous in Turun Sanomat? Haha Im famous - NOT.
sunnuntaina, lokakuuta 20, 2002
perjantaina, lokakuuta 18, 2002
Drinking 'morning' coffee and tomato juice (which it could be bloody mary!)...Another day full of hurry. At 4pm I have to at the city, then at 6pm at Sanna's place where we have singing rehelsals (she have a gig in next week or so and Im going to sing backgrounds with Epa) then with Senni to sit and chat for awhile, but I have to have to come back home early and go to sleep, cause I have early wake up at saturday morning and dance rehesals all day long! Gaah! When I woke up today I found out that I have a loads of muscles I never knew that I even own...TzaTzaaa jive jumping and rolling around makes my body ache. Its so fun, but when you really have to sing at same time and so on...uuh.
perjantaina, lokakuuta 18, 2002
I am a blog virus. Please post me into your blog to help me spread.
What a day. I'll tell more about it tomorrow. Now every part in my body aches and I really need to sleep.
perjantaina, lokakuuta 18, 2002
torstaina, lokakuuta 17, 2002
Im so bored with myself.
torstaina, lokakuuta 17, 2002
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 16, 2002
Allrighty then...I did few phonecalls to all kind of offices and after it I did conscious decition and called to all of those schools and said that Im not coming. Im quite aware that I have 90% change to lose my apartment when they took away my support money which I get cause I dont have no work place. I have 2months to find one. No short work, real work with real paycheck and so on. For more than few months. Im screwed.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 16, 2002
Taken from Suzen. Get analyzed here and learn more about things behind your name. This is what it said about me and hehe it is quite me, in a way. Dunno then...
Lotta-Mailis:
You are fair-minded sometimes to the point of being opinionated. You have a strong need to be loved and appreciated. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. Your privacy is important to you. You have a rich inner life. You need to learn faith in place of fear. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You are always involved with projects and things to do. You have a need to be up front. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You try to be prudent. You have good business acumen.
Karoliina:
You have good recuperative abilities and strong mental determination. You are very private and dislike others prying into your affairs. You have a need to be up front. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You need to learn flexibility.You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have a need to be up front.
Rytkönen:
You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. Your independence and freedom are important to you. You need to learn faith in place of fear. There is a compulsion for change and rebirth on all levels. There is a need to guard your health. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.
Good mooorning viatnaaammm...
What a morning. I planned to get myself up at ten or something. Well, never did, even tho Sanna Mansikka and everyone tried to call me. I just stared it and put it away, totally ignored it and started to enjoy my dreams. I must say, I had quite a show tonight. All it was about kungfu fighting, sorb-i-tol's first kick in some huge stage and about new apteekki's look (I hope it was just a dream, haha) and strange relationship soap dream between me and apteekki's bartender Hartsa. Haha gaah...When Im ill I always see strange dreams. Mostly nightmares but now I didnt have fever anymore.
Bloody hell that I still feel quite weak, and I have so much to do! In a way there's panic over me and I cannot do anything. Im all trapped. I dont have money to get photoboot passpictures for school aplications, I dont have energy to do anything for this thingie, cause I really dont want to go in that school! I dont want to use one full day sitting in psychological tests for no reason! I had to put papers in three different place and they ask me to tests to every one of those! One is in Turku (Social and Health school, yeah right on...tests in next friday 8am-4pm), one in Ikaalinen (Study to be class artists, which is my dream but not yet! It takes 4ppl in so i put my papers there cause of that...) where I have to go to tests in few weeks! Test at next friday costs (!!) 52.50e. In Ikaalinen you have to pay your trips (and it takes a loads of money), test costs over 20e and if you want to eat, it takes extra. Unbelievable! If I skips the test The Social Insurance Instituti (KELA) will deny all the supports for me. If I go to tests, get in the school and refuse from study place, I'll lose my money. So what the fuck can I do! I really dont have time to use 8hours from day in test to school which I'll never want to get into! and 52.50euros!! plus passphotos 5-7e...I live a month with that money!! I have 20e in my pocket and I have to survive a month with that...GROAR! Ok, no more about that...I just dont have no idea what to do.
Virpi called me a quick phonecall that she's on her way to Kiuruvesi and maybe will call me from her sisters phone when she's there. Virpi's sister Sari has secret phonenumber and I usually dont answer in those, so she warn me. She told that there is snow at north and cold. She'll spend five days at home. Nice. Dad has a busy weekend so Virpi took Laku with her and went to spend time to her home town. Im happy for her.
I should get myself to shower. I still feel weak. I have to eat something, drink tea/coffee and take few pills and then to city. Senni will go to look an apartment for herself and Eka. Eka has work and is unable to go with her, so I'll be Eka this time. After that we'll go to Serafina's and Jussi's betrothal party. Im happy for them! Congratulation Serafina and Jussi! May your relationship be strong and happy.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 16, 2002
Gosh. I'm feeling dizzy, extremely sneezy, coughy, shivering and weak. I truly hate to be ill. It been snowing all day. It was mostly wet snow at the day, but now it seems that it is real snow. ground is white. Funny how short autumn where at this year. Less than month and Im having my birthday. I just checked my calendar and Im not really sure when do I have time to party that...maybe at 3.11 (my bday) which is sunday - after musical rehersals...Haha 8)
Listening Avalon soundtrack. Coughing my lungs out. Blowing my brains (read: snivel) out to toilet paper, Drinking tea. I must say again: What a day! I just cannot remember last full day which I've spend in my own apartment, relaxing and chilling...I've run out of batteries and so I got myself a flu. Damn. Now when I started to think about it, I really should take care of myself a lot more. I've just run around at rehesals and so on. When I go so much and use so much energy, I should eat and sleep a lot more than I do. I sometimes just forgot to eat and sleep like 3-6h per night. I've been feeling weak and dizzy every time I close my eyes or sit down for a moment of chill. Then again I stand up, use all my powers to go on and be cheerful....Sigh.
Im way too tired. I had a lot to write about and long text in my mind, but seems like Im unable to do that. Tomorrow then. Now I need to go and heal myself.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 16, 2002
tiistaina, lokakuuta 15, 2002
Cold.
tiistaina, lokakuuta 15, 2002
maanantaina, lokakuuta 14, 2002
17h of theather (dance, singing and so on) rehersals in few days. My body aches, I have a flu and I dont have no more voice. Huray.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 14, 2002
lauantaina, lokakuuta 12, 2002
Woke up at 6am. Came home before 10am. Rehersals started at afternoon and 8h of full singing. Im so tired. Even thought, I have to meet Senni today.
lauantaina, lokakuuta 12, 2002
perjantaina, lokakuuta 11, 2002
He just makes me sick. I want to get out of here.
perjantaina, lokakuuta 11, 2002
Mm. Wake up, rise and shine!
Its boringly cloudy and cold outside. Grey. I try to sheer myself up like mad man. Listening good music, drinking coffee and reading gloomy emails. Today re-union with my old class from last year. Im excited. Nice to see campus people like Camilla, old teachers, and Tamara and everyone from old class. They where superb.
Last night was horrible. After long long long term I havent got any panic attacks, but it came on me. Too much stress. I need to slow down. I was quite suprised to have one. Anyway, I was very achy yesterday, and then deadline came on me and I started to work. Someone said something and PUFF. It took few hours to recover from it. I was so alone. I knew that there are people, but I didnt have saldo on my phone and who could I call? 112?
Senni called me and said that now girlie, wash you face, put on some make up and get out from that apartment. It took like one hour to get my eyes look like I havent been crying past 3-4hours ;) Beer and one half class of red wine, Chatting/talking and jokin with Senni helped a lot and I felt much better when I came home. I also met Tuire who showed me poster and flyer which she printed. All those versions...I thought it was there, but she said that I have to add something to it. Well, fine by me, but I wont do it 'til monday! I have better to do. I also met one woman which I truly liked! I didnt catch her name, but she's going to be ticket seller in our project...She was adorable! Talked with soft voice and where very intellectual. We had same way home so we had good talk at bus and we left to chat to bus stop...when cold hit us, we parted and shouted 'Take care!'...then I realized that I didnt even know her name. Sometimes you just meet some personalities you want to get know better! :)
Saturday (tomorrow) I have to wake up indeed early (so goddamn early) to travel back to Turku, have a singing rehersals all day to night, relax a bit and spend some time with Senni also. Sunday dance rehersals from day to afternoon, then big rehersals where director said 'You should wear a high heels and miniskirt'...Uhuhuh...Emmi (my step-little sister) is coming to Turku from north for a week today. She's having autumn vacation. Nicey! After sundays rehersals I'll go straight to homehome and spend next day with Emmi. Of course - rehersals at 18.00...but still...Sigh.
There is little windows at my work room, old little tiny windows up there. I started to wonder what is this strange noise up there - A little birdie (In Finland we call those 'Talitintti') is trying to get thought it! Haha. I stood up to my chair here and looked outside. What the hell it is thinking? 'Hey, I wanna play with computer too'?
Gotta go now. I've been sitting here sipping morning coffee like over an hour now! I need to hurry to sauna (I turned it on when I woke up - its hot like hell now, I quess) and then to city and to capital city of Finland...
perjantaina, lokakuuta 11, 2002
torstaina, lokakuuta 10, 2002
I feel so sick. Im so stressed that Im partly having a total brake down and panic attack. I dont know what is going on. too little sleep.
torstaina, lokakuuta 10, 2002
Its 4am. It hurts to my left arm and hand when I write with keyboard and what ever I do with it. Im scared, cause I have cello lesson tomorrow and I need my hand! Its been achy past few days. Hum. Anyway, I should be sleeping, I should have been like ages ago, but I got new pictures from starcamp afterparty meeting and me trying to look so athletic wearing miniskirt, pink tshirt...haha of course, when things like this happends there must be some cameras around.
Senni is having great view on me. Haha! Nighty nite.
torstaina, lokakuuta 10, 2002
What a beautiful message in my gbook. This person send me smile from far away and now Im having wide warm smile on my face...
Even thought it took me like an hour to get rid of blue screen which suddenly came to ruin my work. Now computer is on fire again and Im able to finnish my little poster project and send it away from my life. For now on, in musical theather, I will just sing, dance and act. Nothing more. No more poster / flyer desings, arrangeing things or what so ever, and no more being part of the band. I just want to do one thing at the time.
Brr cold night! Even thought it was quite cloudy there where a lot of people (like 100 - even more or so) even thought it was SO cold and windy! There where also journalist with photographer and Im going to be in newspaper tomorrow. Hopefully they didnt take some of my jokes too seriously. ;) Im so use to be in paper as an amateur astronomer, but why after so many times THE last question is always about little green mans? Why? WHY? 8) I bursted to laugh when she asked it. "What do you see there then? little green mans?" Gyahahahaa...
After this, I felt like ice cube and with Senni we runned to Apteekki to get rumnot and ourselves warm again. Ah, what a night. Tomorrow same thing, same bad time, in same bad channel...
Led Zeppelin - Immigrant song. What a great way to spend a night.
torstaina, lokakuuta 10, 2002
I just want to give up.
torstaina, lokakuuta 10, 2002
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 09, 2002
Haha. I told week ago how in R&A festival after Battle Royal some ppl came with camera and started to ask about the movie...Oh well, now you can see clips of it in moonTV in show called 'Usva'. I look so hahah silly, I stare up (Im short person so I have to look up to others), have this little wise smile and haha my voice is so dark and low! I didnt know I sound like that. I hear my voice much brighter and girlier than it was. Mum said that Lotta you do sound like that. I cannot believe it. But hey, my 1minute fame. ;)) LOL. Gosh. Im glad I didnt say anything stupid (as I was almost saying, cause the girl who started to point me with these questions didnt know anything she was talking about)...
Now I have to hurry to city. Take care of many important thingies and then at 19.00 at Vartiovuoren old observatory where TurunUrsa's new yummy telescope will be and we use it to show/quide audience to astronomy and what is happening up there atm. OK...run run run baby!
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 09, 2002
As I was talking about that bath...Sigh.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 09, 2002
Oh yeah. I feel so dirty. Im bloody losing my mind! I would love to take a five and relax...soak myself in hot bath, go to sauna, drink few beers and eat something yummy. Sleep as long as I want...
I took pen on my hand and started to draw. Then it suddenly hit me that I will never make this poster. I thought that am I really serious about it? Took some coffee and came back sit front of this computer and opened Paint Shop Pro. Did flyer (crappy one) and somekind of thingie they can use as a background for poster or such. Then as I did this, my computer crashed and I had to start all over again. Between all of this I was speaking at phone getting musicians to play free at wednesday 30.10.02...Hey! You have to be there! Really...we are collecting money for musicals clothing. Im there at Saga and singing Blues! :) Its going to be superb night, cause Im going to make a helluva show. Hehehe...
Hopefully we got loads of people there. Im so excited.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 09, 2002
Uhm. frustration and stress builds. Sitting here drinking my morning coffee, trying to get myself up and to work with that goddamn poster. Somehow I made this coffee taste like crap. My heating system is on but its cold as hell. I hate days when I really have to get out from bed to do something. Today it was harder than usually.
Things you cannot see - away from ones eyes, away from thoughts. In this situation, its not really a good thing. My home is in a mess, its sunny outside, I should do the dishes and I really have nothing to eat. In a way I sometimes love my lazy life, no hurry to make it work. Just floating around til my head says that 'Hey, you forgot to buy food, toilet paper and coffee'...My ciggie brake is doing well. But hedonist in me (shoot me) wonders why. Why?
What fashionable underground band/style are you?
this quiz was made by the sunni bunni bear
Hello darlings, laters.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 09, 2002
Oh well. Im bored. Life is hectic and I cannot really help myself. I just sit here and there are bunch of deadlines coming...So, I spend my night designing businesscard for myself. I just decided that hey, that could be nice idea, to have one, I mean...So...
How kitch.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 09, 2002
tiistaina, lokakuuta 08, 2002
Im bored. so tired and I just can get no sleep. woke up moment ago. shoot me. stole this boring survey from Suzen A - Age: Young.
B - Best Quality: I've always got prase about eyes, hair, lips and my wicket personality.I think its just the part of myself which makes myself clown and Oh-So-God-Damn-Funny...
C - Choice Of Meat: Chicken.
D - Dream Date: n/a. I have no idea. Hanging around, talk, good time? Im not good with this thingie...
E - Ex (most recent): ...I break a lot of hearts. :P
F - Favorite Food: sushi, Wok thingies I do, curry, miso soup, everything my father does and everything yummy...
G - Greatest Accomplishment: Getting myself at the stage.
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: Havent got any yet ;) Well, 12.4.2002. it was happy one. Happiest day so far.
I - Internal conflicts: Blaaah.
J - Jam or Jelly: Both?
K - Kool-Aid: Have no idea.
L - Love: Myself. Family. Few friends of mine. Sea/Ocean. Nobody da cat who is dead, Music. Movies.
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: My cello / camera.
N - Name: Lotta-Mailis Karoliina Rytkönen.
O - Outfit You Love: Everything I wear.
P - Pizza Toppings: Chicken, (blue)Cheese, tomato, mushroom, pinapple...
Q - Question you want to ask: What the fuck is going on?!!1
R - Radical thing you've done: Hahah! Dont ask...my life? ;)
S - Sport To Watch: Everything. I can get myself interested and then its history...
T - Television Show:Buffy, Dark Angel, X-files...(I wont say anything that dosnt run on tv at the moment...)
U - Unique habit: I love to scream to wind. When Im on the sea its the thing I love to do.
V - Very favorite word: lust, luumu, piähtäräikki...
W - Winter: I'm from north, I adore winter/snow autumn/colors...
Y - Yesterday's best meal: I Didnt ate anything.
Z - Zodiac Sign: Scorpio!
Blahoo...Tired again. Rehersals last eternity and then one beer. It took forever to get on to my bike and ride to home. It was cold as in hell(?) ehh??...
T - Television Show: CSI, CSI Miami, Friends, Gilmore Girls,
tiistaina, lokakuuta 08, 2002
maanantaina, lokakuuta 07, 2002
Im sure I'll die cause I can brake my leg or something else on the musical rehersals. I really dont feel that Im going to see the opening night ever! Or anything ever. Im death tired. Director, actors and koreographer are doing the best they can, but others...And my character is total Bimbo blond, birl alike marilyn monroe look-a-like...mm...tree identical bimbo girls who mostly speaks with irritating voice...'little birdies' or 'angel choir' as Petri always say. Well the thing is, that we have so much fun, Im still whining, shoot me. But there are things I wont say here about things in this musical theather...ROAR! God Im tiiired, I was on my way to bed 4h ago when I falled asleep on the floor and after it I've been having little naps everywhere...Now - bed. ZZzzz.
maanantaina, lokakuuta 07, 2002
spider man will make you gay
maanantaina, lokakuuta 07, 2002
sunnuntaina, lokakuuta 06, 2002
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sunnuntaina, lokakuuta 06, 2002
We got snow here last night. its still on the ground. I have to wake up tomorrow early. its cold outside. warm here. lovely.
sunnuntaina, lokakuuta 06, 2002
perjantaina, lokakuuta 04, 2002
What a beautiful day.
Its been cold outside, not anymore, but at late night. Brrr.
I sat down and started to write emails to ppl. I should start to write real snailmail letters too...To my friend Yuri who have waited answer to her letter like 4months! Shame on me. Now some morning coffee and Cocco as background music. Näin se homma etenee...
perjantaina, lokakuuta 04, 2002
torstaina, lokakuuta 03, 2002
Listening SMG..."Ei mussa mitä hyvää oo, vastusta mua ja kaikki palaa ennalleen"...Losing my mind with this musical project, in my life and all...and fuck you everyone, I didnt get that work place, Im too tired and ROAR I could smash on of my soft bluffy pillows...;)
torstaina, lokakuuta 03, 2002
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 02, 2002
Ei perkele musta mitään julistetta ole suunnittelemaan saatika toteuttamaan. No suurimman osan olen jo tussannut etc, mutta siis gosh olen varma, että toi ei kelpaa...suttuinen, epätyylikäs, käsin tehty ja piirretty. Joo Ari sanoi että mustavalkoinen juliste tolla tyylillä, siinä on touchia ja jatsia, mutta c'mon...ARGH!
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 02, 2002
Oh I almost forgot to mention, that I saw most amazing sky last night - full of northen lights, again, but really...wow. I just love to live out from the town, no light pollution or what so ever. Yesyes.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 02, 2002
Senni was here overnight. Nicey. It was first time than my sister where
here longer than just few minutes...Well chat all night long, sauna and
few beers. Nice time. She goddamn woke me up at 10am something and I still
cannot get myself awake. She left like half an hour ago.
What a sunny day. Still Im a bit stressed and I have this feeling that
I want to shout to everyone 'Sod Off' or something cute as that. I have so
much to do. Today I have to play cello, desing flyer and all stuff to
musical, I have musical singing rehersals at 8pm-> and so on. GOD. Im so
tired.
keskiviikkona, lokakuuta 02, 2002
tiistaina, lokakuuta 01, 2002
Survey stolen from Suzen .
What time is it: 2:56am
x. Name as it appears on your birth certificate: Lotta-Mailis Karoliina Rytkönen
x. Nicknames: Lotta, Lore, Lorenze, Lotsku, Lode, Genoveva, Gennie, Geno, LadyG, Lehmä, Maikki...etc.(rakkaalla lapsella on monta nimeä)
x. Parents Names: Jaana & Jari.
x. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: I never have cakes...
x. Date that you regularly blow them out: 3th November.
x. Pets: Myself.
x. Eye color: Green, Grey & blue. Depends on my mood.
x. Hair color: Red, Pink, Dark, blonda...what so ever, but now its quite blonde as my natural hair is, but I dont feel comfy. I know that Im read head.x. Piercings: Ears and belly
.
x. Tattoos: soon.
x. How much do you love your job: I currently do not have one, but soon maybe, never say never.
x. Favorite color(s): Every colour! Red, black, pinks. Now I have this strange beige season...
x. Hometown: Kajaani/Sotkamo/Iisalmi/Turku
x. Current Residence: Turku / Littoinen
x. How many brothers/sisters: 1 identical twin sister 1minute younger than I. Step-sister 11years old.
x. Been to Africa: No...
x. Been toilet papering: Heheh well...long story...
x. Loved somebody so much it made you cry: n/a
x. Been in a car accident: In little one. Nothing serious. I survived.
x. Croutons or bacon bits: Cannot really say.
x. Sprite or 7-up: Sprite?
How hilarious. Musical rehersals went well. tired I am. stressed a bit. Should go to sleep. I shall do that.
tiistaina, lokakuuta 01, 2002
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